The Day That Was Today

Heyo,

Sorry for last night's nonsensical ramblings. I had just gotten home after hanging with our church group and then an hour car ride home. So excited to be home, I got my pj's on and curled up in bed to chill-are you with me? can you feel the comfort?-only to be assaulted with the thought of my poor neglected blog. I am happy that I pushed myself to do something, although I did cringe a bit reading it a few minutes ago.

Now I have to go. No, not to bed, but to babysit. Leaves at seven...

Back by eleven. Hi again :)


Today was also a busy day for me, because at  seven am we were leaving the house to go to class our church was offering about Theology, the basics. Once a month the have these all day classes for any church in the area about some of these in depth studies. This was my first one and after the late night I did not start out loving it. But after breakfast, it was good. Just very helpful. I know some theology, but it helped clarify some major points in my mind. I tried something new, something hard and it was rewarding. I end up loving most things I try. This is not as good as it sounds.

But it is good to busy, stay active and productively purposeful. And bad when I overload and stress myself and my family. It is both and I can't hold that paradox in my head, so I end up acting all bipolar like, "I LOVE YOU!" "I. HATE. YOU."

Ironically I spent most of my day learning about the God who guides all my decisions and still I know it is my fault for not connecting with him through prayer and Bible reading like I should. And I need to be better.

Besides that I think the hardest thing I am working  out right now, is how hard can I push me? Like I know that physically there are twenty-four hours in a day, but  how many of those can a schedule? Should sleep really be as flexible as I make it? Is this amount of stress good for me? Can I keep this up once school starts?

Answers: Who knows. No. No. No.

So I need to figure out what goes. However until then I simple need to keep catching up on some sleep. That is around to stay.


<3 Lissa