Motivation/Editiing Slough

Heyo,

I have been working a lot on editing my novel and sometimes there is just nothing left.

I want to write for fun, but sometime editing is no fun.. It is, but for those time when it isn't, I turn to other relaxation things like watching Psych or other time wasting hobbies. Sometimes I pick up another book, but every time I do that I remember that somewhere an author didn't stop editing her book, didn't get lost in the problem, but pushed through. And then I avoid the book too.

I recently watched a really cool video on motivation and the point was made that inspiration is internal. That we do what we want to do. I agree that we needed to remember why we are doing things, but also sometimes I need a good kick start.

For me it was having others read my story and give honest feedback; it helped give life to something that had felt stale. Maybe it is taking a break and or writing out a plan, whatever works for you.

<3 Lissa

PS- The cool video I watched:

NERD

Heyo,

Today I was talking with a coworker, who asked me what I liked to do in my free time. I answered read, write, hang out with friends/family.

He replied, "You're kinda nerdy."

Now I know this, I like involving myself in nerdy things, but it hit me when he said it. I don't know how not to be a nerd. It is just part of who I am, but I don't like being confined to something, maybe I am not a nerd, what then? I have no idea. It doesn't really matter anyway, because I like what I do. I like to read, so why do I recoil from the label?

When my coworker said that, I smiled, because I was thinking through the things I like to do.

He asked, "Are you happy doing those thing?"

I said, "Yes of course."

He then went on to discuss his leisure activities and safe to assume, he won't be earning any literary awards anytime soon.

And while I am not much closer, at least I am trying.  Here's to first steps.

Here's to being nerdy.

<3 Lissa

Listen

 

Heyo all.

 

Now that I am done with school, I have been able to read more books and watch more movies. Also been writing quite a bit and listening to "Goodbye" from Catch Me If You Can. It is a great song, and the story intrigued me. YouTube then suggested I listen to the following. 

Yes it is thirty minutes, but believe me it is worth it.

 

 

 

The book, movie, and play all focus on what he seems to consider the "bad" part of his life, why does entertainment need the evil. The show always ends right with things turn out well. The journey I would like to see is how he changed his ways, how is wife helped him. The part of the story that could help others, not the part that could hurt.

Do you think Hollywood is obsessed with evil? Is that a bad thing? And what should we do about it?

<3 Lissa

Glimpses of the Future

Heyo,

The worst thing sometimes is feeling like life is going so fast and you are wasting your time. I know at the moment I am young and have plenty to waste, but I don't want to take it for granted. Today I helped out a graduation ceremony, the same one that next year I hope to be attending. It was nice getting a sneak peek, but then again, I feel like I don't need to repeat it. Like okay, kinda cool, great accomplishment, but the ceremony is pretty boring. Like yay, look at what you did, better do something better!

You are right I am probably jaded, just still tired and a bit sick.

I should look forward to things and stop trying to jump ahead, someday I may want this moment back. Heaven knows I want others to return.

Goodnight,

<3 Lissa

Three Things

Heyo,

I love reading and writing and I wish I did them more often. There is just one thing, I wish I didn't do as much, watching. Of tv, movies, people in general. See it is so passive, an observer doesn't end up as a participating in anything. I am not saying I should do it never. Just that I would consider doing it less.

I want to be a doer and a thinker, someone who is. 

This thought brought to you by a person recovering from a nasty cold, comforting herself by marathon watching Psych.

I might observe less, if it wasn't so much fun.

<3 Lissa

Would You Like To?

Heyo,

Decisions. To go or to stay. The mundane or the insane. I used to think I was very decisive and some would probably still call me that, but I don't feel it. See there are all these nuances and nothing is exactly wrong. Or right. You just have to decide.

If it isn't a right/wrong choice, than the next criteria is what do you WANT to do? I find this just as challenging. I am the sort that wants to do everything. So that doesn't help.

Next is time. There are a lot of minutes in a day. I pretty much use them all one way or another. I have contemplated never sleeping, but I have heard that makes you insane. That would certainly defeat the purpose.

And we are back to deciding, without any help. Sometimes it feels like eeny-meeny-miney-moe.

How do you decide?

<3 Lissa

The Little Long Things

Heyo

Ever noticed there are menial tasks that are just miserable? Like if you do them, they are awful and tedious and if you procrastinate, then you are constantly annoyed. Like you can do the laundry and be reminded of the pointlessness of it all. You wash clothes just so they can get dirty again. Or you can avoid it like the plague and then run out of clean clothes.

During this last semester, I have put off a lot of small tasks. I prioritized things at the bottom of my list and now, I have to go back and clean up my messes. Last night, I was doing laundry at midnight, so that I could have clean clothes for today. There is a layer of dust everywhere in my room. I have stacks of papers to sort through. I have several applications to submit. The list goes on and on. I guess I am specifically thinking about it, because I just spent the last two hours sorting through a thousand emails.

Cue Melissa losing her sanity.

And now being supper happy there are only five emails in her inbox :)

What things do you put off only to have it hurt then make you happy later?

<3 Lissa

Clear Glass....CRASH

Heyo,


The other night I was cleaning out the glass case, where we display food. Here's the thing, I tend to leave the doors to it wide open, and my supervisor is always telling me to close it. That night I was starting to remember to close it, but every time I went to put something back in, I would hit it on the glass. Think of a bird trying to fly through a widow...that was me with  food, smashed against glass .Somehow I kept forgetting that there was a barrier between the space in the case and the space where I was standing, because in my head there was no wall.

It was making me think how invisible walls aren't any less valid than ones we can see. Someone with a broken ankle, might struggle just as much to climb stairs as someone with a fear of heights. Yet one is more recognized, more understood than another.


In the meantime, I will keep up my happy oblivion. "I have no walls." SMACK. "There is nothing in my way." CRASH. "What an easy job." THWAK.

<3 Lissa

Saturday and Recovery

Heyo,

It's summer. It is summer. My brain can't seem to process that it is on break. I had a dream the other night that I still had to take finals. School may be over, but life never ends, and my brain doesn't understand the difference sometimes. That I don't have to go anywhere, but work. That I don't have to carry ten pounds of textbooks everywhere with me.

Don't get me wrong, it is nice. I love summer break, I just don't feel like it is summer yet. I think, it is because I haven't caught up. I spent so much time during school just doing the next thing, trying not to panic that now I need a moment to be here.

Summer Checklist:

The heat- check
Sun- check
No school- check no I don't count that NCLEX review
Loud music -check
Plans- Somewhat

Okay so for the most part the summer checklist is saying that we are here and happy about it. So is that it? What makes summer special to you?

<3 Lissa

FINALS

HEYO

There was this torture once created

Collective to every child in this country

Here I say this activity should be traded:

 Finals week.

 

Sure I am in college

 (and the highschoolers have it worse)

But why do we allow

#1 Stress, which is upon our health a curse

#2 Incomplete assessments of knowledge

All of this to say that I am done for now.

 

This moment I am happily in summer break.

As a reward I am going to eat some cake.

 

<3 Lissa