Salted

Heyo peeps,

Ok, so I was planning to tell you all about my first lecture, but nothing much happened. Also I have something else to catch you up on in my life. Been thinking, I guess any peeps on the internet are non existent, but in real life I have a sort of circle of friends. Unlike you (if peeps, does not work, let me call you therapy, because if I am honest and there being no one to lie too, I am, therapy is what you are).

So today I am going to tell you a story of something that happened last Friday.

I was sitting in a orientation group of freshmen at my college, (no, I am (and am not) counted a freshman mostly, sorta, ok let's move on) and the first thing my teacher had us do was draw a triangle, a Z, a square or lastly a circle.

Long story short (again, mostly). I chose a circle.

Statically speaking then, I was a free spirit.

When the teacher asked if I thought that was right, I nodded and started thinking of irony. Because I used to consider myself a free spirit, but recently I sure had not felt super free.

Let us go back a bit.

Earlier this summer, I almost had to give up something precious God gave me, nursing. I, of course being smart Melissa was like, perfect God wants me to sacrifice my works, sucess, whatever you want to call it. Bottom line he wanted me to give it back to him.

And then when it looked like we were not going to move, even smarter Melissa said, yup- I see what you are doing. Temptation. You want to see if I will run away from doing hard things.

Either way God, just let me know, I am fine with both.

Laughing yet? Because you should be. Who can actually figure God out? 

Not me.

I wanted God to tell me which one.

And there was NOTHING.

I was like, okay I can wait and I could up to a certain point. Then I broke. God stepped into what I considered my timing.

That day, after talking with Mom awhile I tried to actually do something so I was, baking cookies, pulling out ingredients, mixing them together, 

Salting them with my tears.

<3 Lissa

p.s. I am not moving.

Recap of the First Two Days

Heyo all-

So school started yesterday :) Right now I am just enjoying the routine without stress. 

What I did in lab: We went over the syllabus yesterday and learned hand washing techniques. Today we did bed baths and changing sheets. Nothing to challenging yet, but all hard its own way. 

What I learned (that I didn't know): Everything. I am pretty much stupid about all of this works, so all I learned was new. If I had to pick one thing I would say...Steps or organization, being systematic, so I remember what to do and I do not forget things. 

What I messed upon: The hospital bed rails. No matter what skill I was trying to do. I was constantly forgetting to put them up or down as the case may be. I kept them however I found them, until I would realize my mistake. 

Funny story???: Um I stayed late and got some behind the scenes tips? No? That is not funny? Alright, how about, um, oh yeah, pizza. 

So our teacher walked into class today and told us that nursing students were getting free pizza today, starting when class started.

Happily most of us trek out for pizza. Long story short, the pizza was nor for us  and we walked back hungry. It was for second year nursing students. Not us newbies.

Supposedly we will get pizza another time. I hope, rather than believe it to be the case ;)

Hope you are having a marvelous life.

<3 Lissa

Life Narrowing

Heyo all-

So the start of school is coming up quickly. This fact makes me wonderfully excited and NERVOUS.

Do not get me wrong, i LOVE nursing.

Still it is slightly scary. Or alot. I mean I am taking care of precious, God-created, human lives, yet I am only human. THE NERVES.

And this is making me feel better. Because it reminds me that while it feels like I am narrowing my life to one thing, I don't have to. So much is placed on what job you have or are working towards, but as a person I want to be more that what I made money doing.

I want to be how I glorified God.

Yup, great thought, now how do I practically do that. I only have some shadow/echo idea of what that means, let alone how I am to apply it.

I think it means being in God's word enough that I am thinking of Him as much or more as I think of school. There are probably many other things too, but I really do want to start with that.

Thus I embrace my Christian identity and I want to remember to study Christ as much and hopefully more than (strictly speaking) school.

<3 Lissa

Words on a Previously Blank Page

Heyo,

Summer has been good. It has also been one of the toughest summers I have seen. But because of this moment  (which just ended up being the beginning of the storm), I also got my act together about half way through.

This summer I did something that I have NEVER done.

I finished a 50,000 word novel. More specifically I finished a super rough first draft. Titled Forgottons or No One to Blame. Even though it it a mess, I am still really excited though, because this is the longest book I have ever written, most of the time I get distracted by a new shiny idea about 20,000 words into something. This time I did Camp Nanowrimo to finish the last 30,000 words and it totally worked.

Bad picture quality, sorry! But just think about the happiness of this screen :D

Now I am leaving it to sit in its filth and hopefully it grows magic, like rotten fruit growing majic, I mean, penicillin.

I am itching to keep touching it and to write more, but school starts Monday and school take priority. So on to a new chapter in the life of Lissa.

NURSING.

But it adds to my sanity, when I can think in those dark, cold studying moments, "I wrote a (almost) whole book! And no matter what people say, or what grade I get, no one can take that from me."

It just helps me feel like a whole, complicated person. Not just one thing.

Listening to: "Starting Over" from If/Then sung by Idina Menzel

Bye...

<3 Lissa