Mattering

Heyo, 

Things matter. Stuff sometimes happens that hurts me and when it does I want to pull away and pretend I don't care. But just maybe I do and I don't tell you. I numb myself and move onward. I know this isn't the best way to go about things, but it was how I dealt with purposeless was, "fear of oblivion" (John Green).That is until something else dawned on me. (Like, right now.)

Today was an AMAZING day. It. Was. Awesome. (Unlike some days) It mattered.

And you know what? Good or bad, tomorrow matters. And life matters. Why? Because Jesus made it matter, he took life seriously enough to sacrifice his own to save humanity, to save me. He put me here on earth for a reason and I do not want to miss it. 

I am given one shot at living for Christ, I don't want to waste it. But I do. All the time, I put trivial things in front of God. I don't want to do that anymore, because God matters. 

Thank you Lord for loving me.

Midnight thoughts...at 11:30 ;)

<3 Lissa